Wow.

I'm surprised I bothered to make another post. It's been 5 bloody months since my last entry, reason being my inability to convey my thoughts in words anymore. Rather than blabbering incoherent rantings, I decided to stop totally. Now I'm back here trying my darndest to write in grammatically correct sentences, which is no longer an easy task for me.

Let's see... What happened after my birthday in September last year?

4 Nov - ORD
Somewhere between 11 to 15 Nov - Started work at this shit place i shan't be bothered to mention
Somewhere between 1 to 5 Dec - Quit that damned job

Basically, it was full-time rotting from then until the start of this year, when I started work at another place. Though not as shitty as that shit job (I apologise for the limited vocab), it was still pretty sucky. I left after a month, slacked for CNY, and now I'm back to work. My current job is by far the most entertaining amongst the 3. Dealing with mortgages and loans is far better than getting yelled at by nasty customers or doing mindless admin jobs like scanning shit documents.

It wasn't easy living the past few months after ORD. Civilian conversion course didn't really work out. Coming home no longer feels the same as before. I talk less and am pretty much anti-social. I stay in office during lunch break, and when I do feel like eating something, I wander alone. It's not that I have no lunch buddy. I just don't like the feeling of meeting new people. Sometimes I feel I don't even know myself. I know I wasn't like this previously. I was the friendly optimist, save for the constant frowning. It's hard to bounce back after hitting rock bottom for an extended period of time. Honestly, there are so many things bothering me that I don't know the main culprit for my afflictions.

Life sucks but I'm sucking it up. Pun not intended.

This entry was posted by Kelvin, on Wednesday, February 27, 2008.